Good Morning beautiful people!
People who never came to us because they were afraid of being rejected, people who were connected sexually or friendly but do interfere to the others' life so as not to upset him/her, people who used to be an important part of our life and now are not. People who will always want to know, from distance and discrete, how the others are doing, watching as ''audience'' and not as ''leading actors'' in their life.
Certainly there is a guy or a girl someone anyway as above mentioned in your life. A frustration, an ''almost happiness'', a gone relationship, a lost friend. Feelings are no like a pair of jeans that you simply change it just because you are bored of or not comfortable in it. Is like a seal kind of tattoo that you will always carry on you until it completely fades.
You just can't wake up in one day and say you don't care for this person anymore; it was only yesterday that this person was existing in your life, inside you. From the moment that you develop certain feelings or went through certain situations, things together, either you were in a relationship or not, it's difficult to erase all these in one single moment.
Love may fade, love may not be as much as strong as it was, but you still care; ''I just want you to be OK''. Same goes for friendships that no longer exist. If you were connected on a strong friendship, and for some reason it does not exist anymore, you will always, even a little bit, the other person to be OK.
There are though certain boundaries, those silent contracts that people do when they ''break up''. We 've learned to disappear, from ego, because '' that is how it must be done'', because ''is over''. And yet if you only care for someone when is in your life and after everything is OK, then you did not ever truly loved him/her.
So you watch him/her from. Bless Facebook and social media in general which is an integral part of most people life and as much as distance us from real communication, they connect us in difference aspects. You will search the other person, his/her profile; you may be happy with his/her happiness, after seeing his/her posts, perhaps you may be sad because you did not live with him/her as much as you wanted or perhaps you did live her/him and miss him/her now, perhaps you get a bit jealous. But you will not stop searching, even if you rare do it.
You may ask a common friend, or perhaps you stop by his/her workshop; just to see him/her even though you don't say hi to each other. You know and he knows that that look is your own silent contract you both need.
One day, perhaps you text or call him/her. You will exchange some typical words, but you will be mollified knowing that he/she is OK and if he/she is not he may say or let it be suggested.
The most ''sensible'' category of these people are the ones that you left without them wanting it. Those you pushed away while they were loving you. You care about them but how will you dare showing to them? The finger gets stuck on the phone screen, and most of the times the message was not sent.
You respect the effort of the other person to forget you, to get you of his/he mind, to find peace. You don't want to upset him/her nor misunderstanding your interest. And total silence.
For this sort kinda of people you will always be there. Literally and metaphorically. No matter the distance that keeps you both apart, no matter how many bitter words you have said to each other, no matter how many disappointments you've had, it takes only a simple sentence to zero everything; ''Come, I need you''. Then you simply take your heart and run.
Love
FlowerGirl : )
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