I don't know whether it's called chemistry or it can been scientifically explained. Honestly I don't care. Whatever we feel has no logic; If you try to put logic in feelings is like a death threat. Or is this that you desire? To kill it?!
Nevertheless hate to disappoint you because if you did for a moment succeed to rationalize your heart it won't last no more that a minute. For a moment. And then again you will be overwhelmed by your sweet inner haze. And for this reason and only I will not try to explain this mysterious and unbeatable power both physical and emotional attraction which can be developed between two human beings and overcome them.
It is a situation much deeper and intense than just a ''cock''. It does not want to call itself love although if it let go to exist, it would most probably to love. It might never admit its existence, but its intense in every chance reveals the engaged persons and leaves them exposed.
Perhaps those two person did not manage to be together to the present day. Perhaps they never might succeed it in the future when they are afraid to live it. There will be always something bonding them, which has tightened them on an invisible ribbon so as to pull each other together in every opportunity until they separate their paths again to search the reason why this ''something'' which bonds them can not be murdered.
This. The weird, familiar, unexplained, irritating ''this'' which does not look familiar with nothing else and no matter how many times they will put it somewhere in their head believing that it won't be shown or come out again, laughs with them until to the next stimulus.
Until the next time that something reminds him or her. When somebody will refer his or her name, that will cross by to their favorite place by accident, until a colleague will talk about him/her or even the worst scenario: they will run into each other's road.
Exchanging ''cool'' smiles but after they split the same moment will be frozen and replay in their mind the yesterday's scenes. Friendly hugs that when they are apart their bodies want secretly something more. The typical chats talking like hypnotized wondering how did they came to this now; they used to talk about everything and now they talk about nothing.
Those two who in the past they will jump to each other's mind with no mercy and they will literally about to explode. And if they did not put a trap to themselves they will do the same over and over again because this damn 'something' that bonds them is beyond themselves.
They will find other people to have fun. To forget. To feel passion. To be charmed. They will believe that with the help of someone of those others this something has left them for good. They connive though opposite one thing; This that they had the luck to share does not seem to something else that they have lived all these years nor are about to ever live again. It is not that they won't fall in love again nor that they will not move on with their lives. But nothing will ever be like that weird emotion that stir them up every time they were together. A feeling that they drowned and left it in the dark with the label '' it shouldn't'' or a ''bad timing''.
Even though the next that will come are ''cataclysmic'' , maybe more intense, maybe a real love etc, they won't managed to kill that one thing that they did not give the chance to live.This so weird, special so familiar that even time can not take;they will find themselves without wanting it of course in an environment seeking it. Wanting to feel it; Wondering why that particular person that manage to insert in them in a way that you find necessary.
And somehow. like this, two souls will be in a weird way always bonded wherever they are, even if the ''mind'' has forgotten. It will be always those ''two persons''. A story that is can not be deleted, can not be explained, even it can not find the light, it will always bring them together in unpredictable places, unpredictable way, in unpredictable time frames. Just to taste each other.
Their auras to be united even for a while since both still remind and look for each other secretly. To exist those ''two'' in an instant moment. Those two that overturned their meanings when they were together, and if they have decided to let themselves anywhere, anytime to live it again even for a night, will even overturned the balance of the universe; They will give everything and even much more to a union that has never existed; not even before.
Because, in case that you did not realize it by now, this that you inner world has chosen by instinct and once reminded you a powerful magnet, is the one that even you exile it in your subconscious will be yours because it will be for you and only. Don't be afraid anything that you can explain and understand. Don't be afraid the clearly and understandably. Because even if you feel in love one day clearly and understandably, it will be beautiful but not the same.
Be afraid of the baneful, the unexplained. This that you can not name but still happened to you and fit almost like sickness. Be afraid like the devil afraid the incense because you want to live them more than anything else and you will desire this always; that's why you will always drive it off. Because it won't be something you can explain, harmless, neat feelings. It will be everything that can overcome you, all in one person. And that person will be always somewhere out there haunting you like a cross river to 'Give me life'' or to ''Kill me''. Be afraid of it because being so scary it will make you to choose usually the second one. For this reason and only be afraid of it.
Love. Flower Girl. x
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