'' I drink to forget'' a friend of mine one said and he laughs while smoking. As if the booze will erase the memories. And the one who said it first either was a big damn-ass or a troll.
The same influence that has the liquor on fire, it has on thoughts as well. Every sip is the fuel for a time machine which takes us back in time, but with the condition that it accepts only to transport imagination and not the reality. An utopia with an expiration date the time that you are will wake up the next day with headache and difficulty to breathe, and even for a while, will allow you to play again the scenes only with different speeches, dialogues, behaviors, and even main actors.
So drink to forget and good luck if you ever manage to succeed it. The more you drink then more feelings will be coming on the surface one after other. Almost all, except the first one that you were wishing for, from the very first sip, the Lethe.
From literary masterpieces till love songs that you will listen on third-second class music entertainment places that speak about the blurred surreal mishmash of thoughts gives its place to logic, and besides feeling , it starts as well to awaken the ghosts that are hunting us.
Then is the time that we regret all those f****** ''leave'' that we said the time we wanted them to stay, for those time that we turned our back and said goodbye instead of putting roots inside the shoe so as they won't make us to move and leave. They say everything happens for a reason. With the same logic it applies the same for all those things that did not happen.
And that time not only we do not forget but even the no achievable things start to imagine to us real. The burden that we carry on our back illuminates it lighter. Then we do supposed to not know what to do but did not have the guts to dare.
At the end people is tired of conscious preoccupation with substance, likes to be occupied with stupid details, to live the illusion of control. Illusion in the sense that he can fix mistakes, illusion in the sense that after drinking the half bottle to drive, illusion that after a finished story he still may have hopes. Biggest mistakes have taken place after being drunk. Car accidents even drunken messages that never should have been sent.
Booze seduces you insidiously; First you are in euphoria, that you preserve by drinking a little bit more. Truth begins to flirt with fiction and before you realize, you are going through an emotional loading kind of earthquake. No, my friend you do not drink to forget. And you know it from the very first sip. The only think for sure that you might forget is your cell phone, cigarettes or keys, and sleep on the floor.
The rest you will remember in every single detail. If it does exist the saying that we are mortals until the first kiss or the second glass of wine, they you have nothing to be scared or feeling guilty for. When you are in deep lowest sh&**, then there is upwards.
Cheers
Love. Flower Girl. x
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