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                                                           The 30's crisis





Good evening, beautiful people...


The 30's crisis; is it a myth or a reality? Is it the eternal fear that we are almost to a mystery end or to a resurgence of a transient depression to justify all the mistakes that we are about to do?

Of course you will f*** things up and what better excuse than "" I was in a weird situation,dude and did not know what I was doing'' . Powered by a sweet sin with the perfect excuse. Satisfactory.

How ironic though; Because all of sudden you are 30 years old and all those beautiful moments and things that you have lived are magically gone and replaced by the question: '' What have I done in my life? Nothing from what I have done is enough!'' And you basically breathe; To taste a warm plate of guilt, thinking about others that did not have the chance to be 30.

And maybe that inner voice of yours is not coming only from you. Perhaps is coming from parents who tell you in a sweet and irritating volume all these things that you haven't done yet. Perhaps is coming from a society that, although you are successfully in professional level will never be enough just because it's rhythm have become extraordinarily fast. All these ''perhaps'' are feeding a power, which feed a bigger weakness: the unsatisfied one.

The unsatisfied is like the autoimmune. Is a part of yourself and it attacks you sneaky in unpredictable moments. Usually it attacks in peaceful or routinely moments, at that moment that you are about to find yourself then boom, comes the unsatisfied to turn everything upside down. Most of the times this has a positive meaning on one hand because it makes you to desire to be a better version of yourself, but on the other hand just because of the fact that is a feeling without of expiration date it can easily lead you to self-destruction.

There cases of course that people are not affected by their age. When you experience life though extreme means - excessive joy and blistering misery - you laugh mockingly with a little meaning such as ''The 30's crisis''. For you, 30 is just a number and nothing more, because life has taught you that the most important thing in life is living the moment, refusing to put  yourself in ''molds'' and allow to your insecurities to destroy your ''castle''.


So much sh** is going on in your head that you have put your unsatisfied in sleep long time ago, or to say it in different words, you have written it somewhere that you did not need ink. Either way  you have seen so much that you will celebrate 30's with joy, because you have managed to keep a part of yourself alive which reality has tried so many times to destroy it.

Perhaps you will stop by a place where people celebrate their 30th birthday in 1002 different ways and you will secretly smile in compare to the way that you are celebrating yours.

You live to make your life better day by day; Not to prove yourself or to others that you have managed to do something at your 30's, according to society. Because is not about being the most beautiful sh** inside a fossa, but to distinguish from it.











Love. Flower Girl. x